==|been a long time|==
Alone in the valley,
wasted,
twisted,
and unwanted.
Eyes wide open,
mind shutting down.
Staring blue,
as far away from you.
Black sprinkle of hope,
just passing by me,
what monderful magic,
could this possibly be?
A story of you and me,
where there's always only I,myself and me.
Running fast,
talking slow,
all I want is for you to go.
F LU T O : e l i t e
I miss my barkada... Hmmm... Hanna and Donn is out there, somewhere sa Taft, somewhere in the many buildings of La Salle. Two Mondays from now, I'll be having my ORSEM, and the 2 days after that. I'll have my enrollment on the 10th of June, and a guidance testing something on the 11th. Such wonderful experiences awaits me, but of course, some sad thoughts and nostalgic memories come to mind: the fact that every start of a schoolyear, I always have my kada there with me, during break times, and we'd talk just about anything, and I mean anything, as in everything. Religion, believe it or not even politics; about good books to read, movies that are truly inspirational, deep quotes or thoughts, or ideologies; music that soothes the soul, royalties that ruled well, good restuarants and bars we can go to, math problems, PE exercises, and a lot more. Our kada, as we always emphasize on, is just full of different people who thinks differently from each other, but was still able to get along with each and every one. Some people wouldn't have guessed that we're friends with the people we're with, but that's what makes me love FLUTO more. ASTIG EH! We have a great dancer, a thesbian, a musician, a mathematician, a comedienne, one we can consider a mom for her very sincere caring, the cute hawaiian gurl, a "sponsor", a serious and focused one, the happy go lucky, the quiet but really not, the soccer chinese gurl who's not at all chinese, the young but very matured gurl, and the paranoid, desperate ME! so that's 14...there's also the other one, our long lost kada, from Bulacan.>tama ba?< anyways...yup! that's us! Ang yabang ba?! wala..miss ko lang talaga yung mga taong 'to! I'll name them para astig, alphabetical pa kung gusto niyo...
Ethel Marie Balisacan
Paola Daniella Bautista
Alyssa Haisa Corpus
Katrina Chua
Teoficacion De Jesus
Sarah Favila
Ultima Luna
Malyn Kathryn Manguiat
Gail Martinez
Frances Celine Patajo
April Sanchez
Iza Tan (Bulacan's Finest)
Hanna Katerina Tantoco
Donn Elise Yambao
Lizzette Zamora
Gusto niyo pati yung mga dati eh....JOKE!!!!dati umabot kami ng 17/18,meron pa nga kaming plan nun na F17...restaurant daw...pero shempre,mga 2nd year pa kami nun..ahehe..we're happy na ngayon...we're not concerned na sa number,what's important eh yung bond..ika nga...ang SAMAHAN....haha!! stay elite FLUTO!! next time birthday..woops!wait...wag nalng..ahehe..ngayon ko lang narealize...ang daming chinese samen...hmmmm....TIMI!!kahit wala kang chinese blood...kasama ka dun!!! haha!!!
such a very sad tale
t started with a laugh. It was at my house, we
were having a party. He was looking at me as I
was staring at the wall, and everytime I looked
away, I saw the glare of his eyes. It was telling
me to look his way, but I didn't bother. Our
friends made jokes about us, we just laughed
about it. BUt then he started saying these crazy
things, I didn't just laugh, I
giggled,hooted,almost cried and fell down.After
the loud chatters and laughs, there was silence.
A friend started to cry for some reason, other
continued on with their drinks, and I stayed
there,in my seat, across him,still staring at the
wall.I heard his voice, and so i made a quick
glance. His eyes was focused on someone
else,someone special. They look good together,
but I can't stop myself from hoping and wishing
that I was THAT SOMEONE ELSE. But that's pretty
impossible to happen, we're friends,nothing more
and nothing less. Well,I don't regret anything in
our friendship, hmmm... I guess there's one
thing... when he was busy staring at me, I WISH I
DIDN'T LOOK AWAY.....
| stressed out |
*i wrote this a long time ago....months ago, that is....ahehe...
I'm sorry...
I really am...
How many songs do I have to sing,
How many breaths do I have to stop taking?
To let you know how sorry I am...
to make you see how true I am...
I'm sorry...
I really am...
all was true...
all's been great...
but it had ended...
not so long ago...
I'm sorry...
I really am...
for the pain you went through...
for the hatred you kept in your heart...
for the effort that was just put to waste...
I'm sorry...
I really am...
but this is how it is gonna be...
this is how our story ends...
movies!!!
theme song as for the moment.. dahil wala lang..
MOVIES
by: alien ant farm
anthology album
At slow speed we all seem focused
In motion we seem wrong
In summer we can taste the rain
I want you to be free
Don’t worry about me
And just like the movies
We play out our last scene
Two can play this game
We both want power
In winter we can taste the pain
In our short years, we come long way
To treat it bad and throw away
I want you to be free
Don’t worry about me
And just like the movies
We play out our last scene
You won’t cry, I won’t scream
In our short years we come long way
To treat it bad and throw away
And if we make a little space
A science fiction showcase
In our short film, a love disgrace
Dream a scene to brighten face
In our short years we come long way
To treat it bad, just to throw it away
I want you to be free
Don’t worry about me
And just like the movies
We play out our last scene
| F A L L | >repost<
>the original was gone!waaah!<
I've fallen so many times before...
but I always get the strength and will to stand up...
THis time is nothing different from before...
but then why do I go crazy?
over you?
empathy...
sympathy...
pity...
it's not what i need from you...
a minute of your time...
a single glance when you pass by...
a grin or a smile...
a "hello", maybe "hi"...
when i feel you coming near me...
there's nothing more i want
than for you to be here beside me...
looking at the stars above...
staring at the endless sky..
wait til the sun rises...
wait til our eyes tire...
wait til your hand finds mine...
wait till you say the words I long for you to speak...
its freaking 2:21 in the morning...
a lot is bound to happen on this day...
the 10th of may,
a start of a new day....
im here waiting,
writing,
& not even caring...
hoping to see you once again...
wishing to hear from you again...
why did you have to leave?
to go oh so far away?
from my dreams...
and on to someone else's arms...
each day i dream about you...
mention your name before i sleep...
coz maybe in my sleep...
my dreams would become reality..
where I fall on my head...
and there's you,
you.. you.. you..
to catch me...
hug and cuddle me tight..
make sure that everything's gonna be alright...
yes...call me crazy...
but I wouldn't be like this anyway..
if it wasn't for you...
I admit...
I've fallen for you...
a friend...
someone I swore I wouldn't fall for...
but I did...
kill me now...
or maybe leave me...
it doesn't matter...
I've accepted already that to have you was never gonna be a possibility....
I'm quite OK with what I have right now...
those sweet dreams about you...
where visions and wishes becomes reality...
=I don't want "IT" to end=
I won't stop feeling the way I do,
if you don't start feeling just like I do.
I met you too early in my life,
and I think,
I just think,
that then,
you will never be that person I'll grow old with.
I'd rather have you far from me,
or even in the realm of my dreams,
than to have you here beside me,
yet,
knowing that it will end soon..
coz you know why?
i just don't think that I'll ever be strong
enough to let go someone like you..
I may have wished you knew...
but I guess I'd rather keep it here with me...
where I won't have to fear the day
when you'll decide to leave me...-?-
huwahaha! FLUTO:elite: I LOVE!
I really don't know how this works, I can't even edit my own blog options! Anyways, here's my kada site,ASTIG yan! shempre! simply elite!haha!! FLUTO
=uncertainty=
Unravel,
The gravel,
And sand,
In my hand…
Confusion,
Delusion,
And of what it’s all about.
While spinning,
And turning,
Enlighten,
And kindly explain,
To me your reasons
Is it at all true or just illusory?
Can’t help but wonder,
For me you’re faultless,
Seamless,
Perfect and ideal.
My life before,
Nothing but a bore,
Always down,
Despondent and miserable.
Hoping of something impossible.
A perfect life,
A story of strife.
Riot and chaos,
Nothing else but those.
All is viewed in black or white,
Neither is looked upon with colors.
All is just dark and painful,
Uninteresting and dull.
When you came through that door,
I never even gave it a thought.
You seemed pretty average,
Like me, uninteresting and dreary.
So once again,
Make clear to me,
Of how it has become a possibility.
That now, my heart,
You stole and have.
I hate this part of life,
I’m lost,
And baffled,
Of my own thoughts,
Of my own emotions.
I miss the old me,
Full of anger,
Full of rage,
But you turned me,
Me, of all people,
Into a person so corny,
Cheery and full of hilarity.
To hate I can no longer do,
Ranting, I can’t go and be.
This is agony to my soul,
This is torture in my core.
So tell me now,
Yes now,
Of how you feel,
Even the littlest of thing,
At least, I’d know,
That you’re for real.
This is killing me already.
months and months of hiding,
in fear of rejection or negligence.
I wish I could just end it,
End it all,
End my life…
=reality in waiting=
You twist and turn,
Gravity, you govern.
Captivated by your wit and humor,
I simply couldn’t ask for more.
Grins and laughter,
One can never alter.
Your eyes, your smile,
Do not look away,
Even for a while.
The way you touch my skin,
Your whispers in my ear.
The way you hold me near,
Your kisses on my cheeks.
How can I neglect,
One can never forget.
A person of true being,
A voice that keeps on singing,
To my ear,
With the sweet words you told me,
And the promises you gave me.
All is nothing but a yearning,
My dream reality in waiting.
I hate you the series
I HATE YOU the series
May 04
I hate you..
oh you didn't know??
how many times did I have to show you?
how many times did I have to tell you?
are you dumb?
or just plain stupid?
or REALLY that dumb?
or that blind?
You sick as**ol*!
I used all my will,
to make you feel,to make you realize,
to make you see,
that the word "US" will just never be...
and still....
May 05
*and still....
You said you won't mind...
all the lies you'll soon find...
you said i was worth your time,
that all things would work out fine..
but look at us now?
taking our last bow,
a bunch of creeps living in the dark,
waiting, stalking, lurking..
full of angst,that's how i feel inside..
got nothing else,nothing else to hide..
you know how i feel,
i know how you feel...
so let's cut to the chase...
talk to me face to face...
all your passion, i felt for sure...
it was me,of my feelings,who wasn't sure...
made your vehemence felt...
upto that great extent..
that i couldn't breathe..
**i couldn't breathe...
may 06
* you misunderstood my intentions...
every word i said was true...
and the things we've been through...
i told you everything
but it was you who didn't beleive in me...
i did love you...
i did...
past is past...
so our time,let's not waste...
it's been said and done...
leave it be...
i said the things i felt inside...
there's nothing wrong with that..
but you're not the only one...
you're not the only one...
i may have hated you...
but its not because of all the things you said...
or the things you've always kept inside...
i hate you,because i hated hating you...
i hate the feeling of being mad at you...
i hate it when you explain to me things...
i hate it when i can't do anything to make you happy....
guess you didn't see...
you should've waited for this last part...
maybe then you'll see..
that to hurt you was never my usual doing..
sh*t happens...
only problem is...it happened to us...
move on..move on..
i remember telling you that...
i guess you've moved on...
i'm happy for you...
now don't mind me..
leave me be....
I'm just another bitter person...
reflecting about the things of the past...
I made a mistake....
i know i did..
but that's all behind us....
let's just end this....
if in love, we didn't find our place..
if in friendship,it'll seem to be impossible...
maybe if we became mere strangers...
yes...strangers...
everything would work out fine...
your life goes on..
mine will too....
so for the last time...
goodbye...
to the sweet memories...
to the great experiences....
I know i said i'm sorry...
but goodbye is better than sorry...
goodbye....
------FIN-----
