MIXED THOUGHTS
i have already wasted 4 dvd-rs in attempt to burn these tv shows for my dad.i had 1 success so far.i'm hooked to downloading, and staying up 'til 430 in the morning to just finishing the download and watching it. thanks to PAOLA (im saying this in a sarcastic manner) for influencing me to watch Grey's Anatomy.and now, i'm hooked into it.well,after watching until 430am,i go to bed,and i get to sleep only when it's 6-630...imagine that!!! my 2nd sister already for work,my nephew was already picked up by his school service,and im still awake?!! such a freak lizet!!!
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i spent my sembreak planning and hoping, but nothing have really happened yet.well, i went to the beach, with my blockmates. at least there's that. but i'm just sad because i had 2 attempts, plans actually, for my barkada, though they all weren't aware of it,because the planning ended even before it was actually done/complete. i was really looking forward to having lunch with them, see a movie i SOOO WANNA SEE (the prestige)..but it just so happens that they all have classes already...paola went ice skating... who else can i invite? almost everyone already saw the movie.... even my very DESPERATE PLAN, well sort of my last resort... didn't push through either...why? BECAUSE EVERYONE ALREADY SAW THE MOVIE... so how can i go through with my plan? well, my plan was to ask... simply ask... and then ask a follow up question... but i was not given the chance to ask again because the moment ended with the previous question... so how can i move forward? i'm not rushing into things, but maybe, JUST FREAKING MAYBE, i want to know... i want to figure something out... i;m just so tired of analyzing, of interpreting, of waiting, of thinking... and i'm tired of saying MAYBE and I DON'T KNOW... i want to be able to say that i like someone..but i simply can't, because all i can think of is the POSSIBILITY and fact that that that someone is really likable... i may like him... i already like him,MAYBE...
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lately, i've been having weird dreams.all dreams are weird, right? in this one dream, i lived in this house made of plywood,and my lola lives with me.before that scene,i woke up in our car seated on the passenger seat,alone,and our car is in the middle of the road...i drove home...then in our plywood house,there were 6 scary men...i told my lola to run...the guys went after me,and with my swiss knife,i tried to cut this 1 guy,but he didn't even bleed..next thing i know,he's killing me,and i'm dead...
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the only reason i'm writing all these down is that im waiting for my 6th attempt of burning a dvd.and yeah,i want to read this over and over,because when i read something,or when i see something,whenever there are any visuals, i tend to understand more, and actually see more into the situation...so maybe by writing,i can figure out a way of how i handle and how i should handle certain situations...maybe i can stop saying MAYBE??
i have already wasted 4 dvd-rs in attempt to burn these tv shows for my dad.i had 1 success so far.i'm hooked to downloading, and staying up 'til 430 in the morning to just finishing the download and watching it. thanks to PAOLA (im saying this in a sarcastic manner) for influencing me to watch Grey's Anatomy.and now, i'm hooked into it.well,after watching until 430am,i go to bed,and i get to sleep only when it's 6-630...imagine that!!! my 2nd sister already for work,my nephew was already picked up by his school service,and im still awake?!! such a freak lizet!!!
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i spent my sembreak planning and hoping, but nothing have really happened yet.well, i went to the beach, with my blockmates. at least there's that. but i'm just sad because i had 2 attempts, plans actually, for my barkada, though they all weren't aware of it,because the planning ended even before it was actually done/complete. i was really looking forward to having lunch with them, see a movie i SOOO WANNA SEE (the prestige)..but it just so happens that they all have classes already...paola went ice skating... who else can i invite? almost everyone already saw the movie.... even my very DESPERATE PLAN, well sort of my last resort... didn't push through either...why? BECAUSE EVERYONE ALREADY SAW THE MOVIE... so how can i go through with my plan? well, my plan was to ask... simply ask... and then ask a follow up question... but i was not given the chance to ask again because the moment ended with the previous question... so how can i move forward? i'm not rushing into things, but maybe, JUST FREAKING MAYBE, i want to know... i want to figure something out... i;m just so tired of analyzing, of interpreting, of waiting, of thinking... and i'm tired of saying MAYBE and I DON'T KNOW... i want to be able to say that i like someone..but i simply can't, because all i can think of is the POSSIBILITY and fact that that that someone is really likable... i may like him... i already like him,MAYBE...
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lately, i've been having weird dreams.all dreams are weird, right? in this one dream, i lived in this house made of plywood,and my lola lives with me.before that scene,i woke up in our car seated on the passenger seat,alone,and our car is in the middle of the road...i drove home...then in our plywood house,there were 6 scary men...i told my lola to run...the guys went after me,and with my swiss knife,i tried to cut this 1 guy,but he didn't even bleed..next thing i know,he's killing me,and i'm dead...
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the only reason i'm writing all these down is that im waiting for my 6th attempt of burning a dvd.and yeah,i want to read this over and over,because when i read something,or when i see something,whenever there are any visuals, i tend to understand more, and actually see more into the situation...so maybe by writing,i can figure out a way of how i handle and how i should handle certain situations...maybe i can stop saying MAYBE??
