blah blah.
silence at last.
pasukan na ulet.
i did something really really great!
I'm proud!
I'm satisfied.
I'm fun again!
bleh!
i edited my debut pictures kanina....then around midnight, i watched my debut video dito sa comp. didn't want to wake up the others so i didn't use the speakers...i forgot fun that day was....well, i really didn't enjoy the party itself, but looking back at it made me realize that it was a FREAKING FUN NIGHT! a lotta things happened.. it was my very first pictorial and video shoot that focused only ON ME! it was also a first for me to receive all those gifts, wishes and roses. i can't forget burning michelle's hair. she was a candle and after her speech she went to me and i whispered something to her. a few seconds later, we smell something burnt. IT WAS HER HAIR, because of the candle she was holding. we were unaware that her candle caught her hair.no serious damage and it caused a big laugh. kodak moment! hmmm...i'm such a drama queen because i cried a few times during the event itself.i was worried that at least 3 tables won't get filled up. my friends were scattered and they didn't know each other(or not!). they pretty much talked to each other naman..i'm so pessimistic lang kasi...oh well...its good to relive moments like that! i'm so thankful to and for my highschool friends,barkada,blockmates,relatives and acquaintances. they completed my night.they completed my being 18.there will always be a night to look back at because of these people.they made it all possible.they were my motivation to make that night as great as i hoped it'd be.its not what i expected, but it was great enough.i also realized that i gave a very lame speech.its so generic.my "thank yous" were not personal enough.but oh well!still MOVING ON!!!!!!!!!!! but i'll be fine..like what a friend told me... i survived 17 years of my life without him.....i'll be able to live the remaining years without him.....
you're so selfish! i know now how he felt before,when i was the one acting selfish. no wonder he'd do anything to get back at me. he actually succeeded and i'm still under his vicious spell. i still can't forgive and forget him because of it. my anger and bitterness are what ties me to him.but don't worry, i won't try to get back at you, coz its really simple, I fell for you. Never in my whole life did i think I would fall for someone, this early in my life. I was selfless, and now I believe that I have to let go. the learning stage is over, we're over. I'm moving on, though there's nothing much to let go of.It has always been this way, a one-way emotional rollercoaster ride, but I'm grateful anyway. if ever we see each other some day, i hope we'd be mature enough to greet each other and talk about our lives. we could at least have that friendship we gave up long ago.
THIS IS THE LAST TIME I WILL EVER FALL FOR YOU.
i remember falling so perfectly for you
but now all i can feel and see is how
the tears have stopped flowing
and how the pain has stopped aching.
it's just sad that i was only second best and that i can never win your heart
but thank you for finally giving me what i needed.
so i tell you this,
this is the last time for my hopes and dreams about us
and may this be the last time i'll fall, for you.
