=uncertainty=
Unravel,
The gravel,
And sand,
In my hand…
Confusion,
Delusion,
And of what it’s all about.
While spinning,
And turning,
Enlighten,
And kindly explain,
To me your reasons
Is it at all true or just illusory?
Can’t help but wonder,
For me you’re faultless,
Seamless,
Perfect and ideal.
My life before,
Nothing but a bore,
Always down,
Despondent and miserable.
Hoping of something impossible.
A perfect life,
A story of strife.
Riot and chaos,
Nothing else but those.
All is viewed in black or white,
Neither is looked upon with colors.
All is just dark and painful,
Uninteresting and dull.
When you came through that door,
I never even gave it a thought.
You seemed pretty average,
Like me, uninteresting and dreary.
So once again,
Make clear to me,
Of how it has become a possibility.
That now, my heart,
You stole and have.
I hate this part of life,
I’m lost,
And baffled,
Of my own thoughts,
Of my own emotions.
I miss the old me,
Full of anger,
Full of rage,
But you turned me,
Me, of all people,
Into a person so corny,
Cheery and full of hilarity.
To hate I can no longer do,
Ranting, I can’t go and be.
This is agony to my soul,
This is torture in my core.
So tell me now,
Yes now,
Of how you feel,
Even the littlest of thing,
At least, I’d know,
That you’re for real.
This is killing me already.
months and months of hiding,
in fear of rejection or negligence.
I wish I could just end it,
End it all,
End my life…
