depression.
illusion.
frustration.
or fascination? it is all too real.
surreal. or unreal?
make me feel.
make me see what you see.
i want to be what you want to be.
wanna go under the sea.
swimming in an empty vast space.
hazed. in a daze.
baffled. confused. for it's all too confusing.
disappointing.
that's what i've been.
mistakes unseen. but continues to haunt me.
I never want to be,
what I used to be;
who i used to be.
i've become numb. indifferent.
love? be loved? my beloved.
i'm incapable. unstable.
disabled by the pains.
blaming you.
is what i want to do.
but i wont choose to.
you're me. im you.
hoping for you to like me too.
im dreaming. in dreams.
the reality. in the realms of my dreams.
" I ' m B i t t e r "
I lay down to sleep, just letting my heart weep
its last tears. For months, I've been doing every
little possible thing to make you notice my
presence, but none of it worked, as it
seems.So I tried to do otherwise, I tried to let
you go, but I kept coming back.I thought that I
didn't want to live through life with full of regrets
or 'what ifs'.BUt I lost my patience.I lost my
faith.All hope is gone, and there's nothing left to
make me stay. The reason for me to stay, has
now become the very reason for me to say
goodbye.I knew this was coming, but i guess I
just got too excited and comfortable with
you.leaving you seemed to be such a hard thing
to do.But things have changed, I've changed.
You can no longer manipulate me.you can no
longer fool me.And I won't let you hurt me, not
anymore.
there's a quote eh... tawag ko "wake
up"..forwarded quote lang...
parang ganito>>> don't fall for someone who is
stupid enough not to fall for someone like you...
diba bitter na bitter? next time yung hindi bitter
naman.para astig..hehe YUCK!
realizations...
well.. I haven't written anything for almost a google years... google is 10 to the 1000th power...hehe... i learnt that in math... although I'm not sure of the values anymore... basta ganun.. I remember adrian saying, "wala bang yahoo?" gets niyo ba? anyways... I'm just gonna list down, or whatever down the "realizations" of the past weeks...
I don't need to cry over something I know wasn't meant for me...
I shouldn't wait for forever when I can start off from scratch, and maybe there, my efforts will be recognized and reciprocated...
I will be able to move on, if I permit myself to...
I can always argue about my family, but hey, they're the best thing that happened to me...
I really don't have to go through all the religious practices, I just have to live by it...
I shouldn't say sorry when I really don't mean it...
A guy doesn't like you, or is not interested in you when he just make signs or whatever, he does, when he finally say the words "i like you" to your face....
nakalimutan ko na yung iba! so whatever loser! hehe.. I'm enjoying my college life... I'm active in my org..well, not that active..peor gets? I wanna help out parati... sayang nga eh, meron akong hindi napuntahan na meeting.. bad shot...tsk tsk...
