i wanna cry, but i won't, because i won't cry FOR YOU anymore...
i'm never wrong with my theories and assumptions regarding other people's lives(specifically, in....secret...basta)... fine, i admit i could be a little over the limit/edge in my theories/ideas, but i am near to the truth... and fine, i do make mistakes too... but you know what? i'm quite sure of my latest theory/realization about someone and someone... FREAK! CREEP! no matter how hard i deny it, or no matter how hard you try to make me believe in whatever you're trying to convince me to believe in, I still trust myself more than i trust you... besides, how can i trust you when you who can't even give me the single thing i needed: honesty? let's stop playing games here. seriously, we can't go on like this with this dream and hope for whatever, because surely, it wouldn't be successful...THIS IS ALL MAKE BELIEVE. i know that you know that we only share the "nothingness" of this life... that's what makes us so similar... but then again... not so similar at all... why? FUXA! ayoko na! ewan! basta. i can't wait forever..fine nobody told me to wait, but i guess that's all i can do for you... besides the friendship that i enjoy most dearly... but even the friendship we shared disappeared... i miss those times when we don't need to think of the things to say before we say it to each other... i miss the spontanaeity... well, im almost crying now...not because i know that time will come that i will regret saying all this, but because we lost the friendship, and i'd be farther to that friendship we once shared... but hey, this year is about loving myself, respecting myself, taking risks so as to not torture myself with confusing and destructive emotions and ideas... so here it is... my judgement... the decision... i'll quote from the movie LOVE STORY, "then you'd be stupid for not asking me out for coffee.." yes, its bitter, yes its sooooo cliche to say ITS YOUR LOSS, but hey, i'm willing to admit to everyone that i'm gonna lose a lot with this, but it would be a greater loss for you because you're gonna lose, well if not then good and lucky you, one of the makukulet friends one could have, and the most desperately in love with you.. OR NOT! hahaha... i wish i could laugh my hearts out, instead of crying...
