Hmmm.
*talking to myself again*
Yesterday, for me, was a FRIENDSHIP DAY.
Haha. why?well, umagang umaga palang, kasama ko na ang friendly friends ko.I attended the 7th LFC AVO showing and awarding.I actually joined the org before, but during those times, walang nangyayari sa org.Or that's just the impression I got because I joined the wrong group?I really don't know. So, I quit the org, and I never thought of going back.Now, Derek invited everyone to watch the AVO, I really wanted to go,even in the end, no one else is going.Morning came, and I texted Paola, begged for us to meet up.She was with her 3-8 friends, and I kinda tagged along.Magkakakilala naman kami, and yeah, okay naman.Tapos ayun.Wala masyadong tao, pero astig pa rin!Tumabi na rin ako kanila paola. they sat on the 3rd row from the back.Unti lang sila so mejo may seats pa na empty beside me.Tapos tumabi na rinsi derek and ayun, nag start na yung film showing.
SHORTS (short narratives / short films)then, dumating si finella, siguro on the 3rd short na.before we continue with the FRIENDSHIP DAY story, here's the story on paanobiglang sumama si finella.
--->the night before, ayaw ni finella, she's not interested daw in INDIE STUFF.then its P80, so she didn't really want to spend that much on somethingshe wasn't interested in. AKO, desidido talagang manuod kahit mag-isacoz frustration ko talaga yun.Hindi man ako maging filmmaker or something,but at least I'll be able to appreciate these films / productions...nung morning na,nasabihan siyang may bands daw...tapos biglang naginginterested na.astig.and i told her i'll pay for her P40.hehe..<---
okay. tapos dumating si fin, tapos ayun. kumpleto na.finella, derek, paola, 3-8 people, ako.watching the SHORTS.then PSA (public service announcements)astig actually yung entries. although may ibang... NO COMMENT na lang.
music videos na miss namin ni finella coz nag train kami.nakatatamad, pero kailangan.ang init, pero kailangan.wala masyadong taong pumunta, pero kailangan pumunta.tapos ayun.
ANG KULET NILA, boyfriend ko raw ba si LUIS? dahil dun sa sci10 presentationnila egg and chia... tsk tsk... si dino ang boyfriend ko! haha! for 2 hoursand 30 minutes! haha!
anyhoo, bumalik kami sa AVO, at tapos na yung music videos and documentaries.mga exhibition films na lang. kasama na rin namin sila ellyn, ira, and a girlna friend nila.dumating sila paola, tumugtog ang JOKETIME! go ac!tapos MR. BRIGHTSIDE pa!
"jealousy.......lalalalala.... i just can't look its killing me!"
kahit wala na yung crush factor, andun pa rin yung "jealousy"...pero wala.. steady na... we're cool... i'm cool! haha!
tapos nag alisan na.. natapos na..naiwan kaming 3.nagkulitan.naghiritan.naggantihan.nag-asaran.nagpaluan.ang aming GIRLFRIEND DEREK, nangurot. she's our girlfriend coz he's a SHE!haha.umamin na siya. KIDDING. pang asar namin sa kaniya.and it works allthe time! namili na rin kung saan kumain, napunta nang eastwood, bahay nifinella, katipunan... and wala... SHAKEY'S! haha. ang dami ring AVO people dun.sila PAOLA andun and some other friends niya.
FRIENDSHIP DAY din coz we saw alyssa sa cantina.yehey.wala, hang out lang din siya dun, nahanap niya na sister niya.i mean wala lang. joke. basta, kasama niya sister niya and other people.
tapos after dinner. antok nako talaga, sabi ko AALIS NAKO.ayokong magpahatid coz ayoko lang. its out of the way. si finella, madadaanannaman talaga ni derek, so yun nalang. eh si finella, ang kulet! haha.tapos nag-usap pala kami ng dessert, tapos ayun, pinakain ko na lang silasa bahay.haha! dessert nga ba yun? wala, its an AFTER DINNER SNACK nga actually.
kulitan ulet. nakilala na nila si AJ, my nephew, and CJ, my cousin.(FINELLA, correction po. CJ's my cousin.)tapos inexplore nila yung sala namin. tingin ng pictures blah blah.si girlfriend derek, akalain mo, ang galing din palang ATE!hahasi finella, HIGH! ang weird, nagyayang mag eastwood, nagyayang hindi na umuwi.haha!
so what else?AYOKO NA! ANG HABA NA NITO!
wala. FRIENDSHIP DAY coz i got to hangout with finella and derek, and semi hangout narin with paola. tapos nakita rin namin si alyssa.so wala lang.
it was a FUN FUN day.
uhhh.
here we go again! sabog-ness! haha
so okay, napaka gandang GOOD MORNING! ano at baket?
nagref lang naman kanina! alam naman nating lahat na WALA KAMING ALAM SA pagREF.
ang game pa ay ARROWHEADS (dlsu team) vs. ROGUES. sobrang ang daming conflicts...
tapos sa 2nd half, nagkakainisan na both teams dahil sa mga illegal na ginagawa nila na hindi namin makita, thus, NO CALL / PENALTIES... at the same time, asar na asar na samin... both teams even said na YOU BETTER TEACH YOUR REFs....
uhhhh.... so okay.... sobrang nakakababa ng morale... its the 2nd time i had to ref, and experience doesn't help..... it just keeps getting worse and worse... but hey! we learnt something new! JUST DO / SAY IT WITH CONVICTION... and so if you appeared to be a stupid little biatch? hey! just believe in what you think is / was right! if you didn't see the illegal block, then say, I DIDN'T SEE IT!!!! if you don't get the calls / penalties the teams are asking, you make your own call....... if its encroachment (on the side of the defense) or false start (on the side of the offense), then..... *long whistle* and say, ENCROACHMENT, OFFENSE GAINS 5 YARDS!!!!
when game time over, *LONG WHISTLE* and say END OF 1ST HALF! 5-MINUTE HALFTIME!!!!! basta! lahat sila galit na!!!!! the rules in the rule book weren't clear din kasi eh!!!
PERO SIGE! masaya pa rin!!!! im happy happy!!!! ignoring the insignificant THINGS in my life....
and paola's right....... "stop staying with lower immature ones"
haha! kung sinuman ang mga lower immature ones na yun.. its hard to tell....haha!!!!
HAPPINESS.yessss.
"i never really wanna feel, like i did that day....">>actually, like kanina... pressure, tension, stress, low self-esteem....
so okay.come on.wala lang.ewan.or something.whatever.(something serious) .... lalala....fudge!fota.. labo...ang sabog ko...SORRY...-->ang aking mga hilig sabihin o kaya'y isulat...i just realized, napaka senseless kong tao..OK lang, cute naman ako eh...KIDDING!mukha ba akong guy diyan sa picture? sorry ah!so wait lang.gusto ko lang 'tong pic nato kasi mukha raw akong guy diyan. and ang cute kaya nung picture...with the hair pa, tapos yung facial expression... it was as if "pinag-isipin" yung shot... not really, pero gets? sobrang kakagising lang niyan...wala...i'm just happy right now...
okay, since happy ako tapos masaya ring gumawa ng lists, or mag enumerate (ehem, ang dami sa psych eh!bad trip) me = happy...- kasi nakasama ko ALYSSA last saturday.yihee.i miss our talks dati.kabastusan pero matino.haha.
- hindi dahil sa isang inspirasyon or isang special someone.. tsss.. yun naman ang hindi saken uso.. yeah, i get depressed foine, EMO over some people.. pero yung happy HAPPY? nah.. basta now, happy dahil sa LAHAT NG MGA TAO.. this is my call: so if anyone out there is willing, pero medyo unable dahil baka nahihiya kayo.. HAHA.. kidding ulet.. asa... (LIZET ANG LABO MO!)
- kasi tapos na finals! almost. still haven't studied. fota. oops! ehem. basta.
- kasi over na ako sa stage of depression.
- kasi nakilala ko si sir kirby. HAHA.kidding. isa siyang sabog pero astig na teacher.at feeling ko akala ng iba naming classmates ay crush ko siya.. IM SORRY, pero hindi talaga... mas trip ko si sir mendoza... i like 'em old... KIDDING, again... pero seryosohan, kasi nakilala ko nang lubusan ang ilang mga tao...and i feel like a "friend" na talaga ngayon...they can trust me... and i trust them...
- kasi im open to and excited on my NEW LIFE....labo again.. pero gets? im going back to the start.. pero ngayon, not to make the same mistakes dati... ehem, ilang beses ko na bang naulit.. HAAAY! ok, wait.. happy pala dapat...
- and wala... naghahanap lang ako ng output for my weirdness...kasi yung FIL. final paper ko na 9 pages, kaninang 9am-2pm ko lang ginawa, i passed it ng 3:30pm. kaya ako masaya!haha
SERYOSO. weird ko na! ayoko na mag aral for psych. wala ba ulet tulugan 'to? or what?
im weird, and im happy...
ayun, ang significance pala nung picture ay eto... ang weird nung pic diba? and lets just say nagiging WEIRD NAKO ULET..kaya yeah! that's reason enough, for me, to be damn HAPPY AND ECSTATIC.. oooooh.... ecstatic? yun ba yung..may joke sana ako, pero ang hirap pala dito.. hindi magegets... its 11:35m i'll try to study... take note of the TRY.. low batt na rin itong laptop..yehey, na reformat na siya.. BAD TRIP ANG ADMU COMP. LAB. pag may nagpasabog nun, you can blame me..not because i did it, but because i hoped for it... pero sana walang masaktan..hahaha.... LIZ SHUTTING DOWN...zzzz...woops, aral pa pala ako... ADIOS!
entry:
POSTSECRETS.
ONLY ONE.
"LOOK AT THIS FRAGILE THING NOW....
I FEEL SO BROKEN UP, AND I GIVE UP...
JUST WANNA TELL YOU SO YOU KNOW...
HERE I GO.... TRYING TO GET TO YOU
YOU ARE MY ONLY, MY ONLY ONE..
I'LL LET GO..." - only one by yellowcard
wooshoo! sino naman si YOU? wala. yun na nga ang point eh. WALA. moving on. hala, ang bilis na. at least hindi na ako umiyak diba? pero eto, wala na akong naffeel for YOU.... kung sino ka man... i mean
1) we're friends. and ang saya mo maging friend...
2) you like someone else... and can i just say na bagay kayo..i mean ang cute niyong 2...astig... hindi 'to reaction formation or any psych thing...
3) emo 'to pero mukhang totoo naman eh, im not for that... whatever THAT is...
naaliw ako sa ginawa kong postcard with my secret on it.. well, hindi na siya anonymous kasi sinabi ko nang akin.. so anyhoo, here's the pic of it.. actually i made 3 (three) so ippost ko narin..haha.. para masaya! actually malabo pagkakakuha ko.. i tried editing it ng sobra.. pero wala...haha..
here's our title, whatever...basta yung harap ng exhibit...
(see picture at the beginning of the entry..haha)
1) ALWAYS TRYING TO BE DIFFERENT
2) IN SEARCH FOR PASSION
3) falling for a friend is URBAN LEGEND...but then...YOU made me fall...and...I FELL FOR YOU
no significance. i just like the song.
i'm feeling indifferent, again. back to my old self. but i still can't help but feel disappointed whenever you are not around.
broken wings
bleed the dream
in a dream i spent a day with you
in a carriage bought by blood
the clouds were singing songs of fear and loss
and they cut me down to size
and they cut me down to size
broken wings
have a home tonight
no one is listening, no one is listening
when darkness fell on the streets last night
we never expected, we never expected this
in a perfect world, i'd never know your name
and do we even know it when we die
or will death just pass us by?
or will death just pass us by?
please just pass us by
broken wings
have a home tonight
no one is listening, no one is listening
when darkness fell on the streets last night
we never expected, we never expected this
when all this pain is justified
while all the time is passing by
now is when we clench our fists
knowing we can fight through this
the hours and days are gone
the weeks and months are moving on
can't they see that's nothing gonna stop us now
broken wings
have a home tonight
no one is listening, no one is listening
when darkness fell on the streets last night
we never expected, we never expected this
broken wings
have a home tonight
no one is listening, no one is listening
when darkness fell on the streets last night
we never expected, we never expected this
broken wings
have a home tonight
no one is listening, no one is listening
when darkness fell on the streets last night
we never expected, we never expected this
We never expected this...
