i just had to write
hmmm... its night time again...
got no one to talk to... oh well.. no more ranting for me, coz that one person i always share my wicked thoughts, may rants with is out there..somewhere in california...she's busy now with all her school stuff... and i think i should do the same.. focus on my studies, i mean.. =p i read ethel's and timi's blog.. really nice... kaya i got somewhat inspired to just write something..
my life is not a river flowing to different paths..
my life is not an ocean,for it is not as big as i picture it..
my life is simple, my life is boring, and yet it continues to move..
quite problematic and ironic, don't you think? and i guess, you understood very well, the point of all these... my life is neither happy or sad.... it is neither perfect or worst.. it is neither feeling or numb... and when you come to think of it... it is a lot worse than having a freaking poor life... i don't know.. that's just how i feel right now.. I am happy, but no contented, if that is at all possible... I have lost my faith, but still have little hope... I am free, but I continue to place myself in a cage and continue on loving.... but know what? I'm sick of it all... I want to change, and I want to change now.... so I guess.... I'll start denying the fact that I loved or,if ever, am still in love... for it only brought me pain and worries... so now I promise this to myself.... I'll stop living in the realm of my dreams and really start living in the so-called-reality... so now.. you'll never see me walking after you, waiting for you to notice my presence there... for I will cross the street, leave you there in the dark side of the street and leave you be....while I on the other hand, will go to another place, and maybe there, I'd find someone LIKE you, or just close to who you are, and maybe, just maybe..... I'd be fucking HAPPY!
