GRABE! Ang daming bago ngayon! I don't know. I was talking to a friend (siyempre sa ym) and suddenly I felt fine na lang bigla. I don't know, I felt the comforts of my other friends, and yes, the pain-to-the-heart realizations helped, but I needed just one more "feel good" advice and encouragement for me to be okay. Well, last week, my parents considered actually living in a condo at eastwood. It'd be 2 studio types, one would be used for "renting" in the future (sorry na, always think of ways to earn..haha). The possibility was 60-40, in favor of the PRO condo. Well, I didn't like the idea. For a lot of reasons: I won't have my own room, its a bit small compared to what I was used to (as in compared to our house when I was younger pa sobra, our present house is okay..), it wouldn't be really a "home", you know? It would just be a "sleeping and dining" area. There won't be any nice neighbors to greet during the Christmas and New Year. There won't be a large land to stroll along, nor a playground where your friends can hang out. There won't be any get togethers anymore. Well sure, there'd be a lot of convenience in our part: mall is around the corner, we can party all night since we live in the area, can hang out anytime, anywhere. Still, I would never feel "at home". After some time, it will be owned and redesigned by someone else. Its sadder than leaving your own house, the structure that you truly owned and grew up in. Well, the point is, last Monday I asked my dad about the plan, he just said that from 60-40, it became 5-95. Meaning, no more condo! That's great really! Knowing that, I just felt good about everything. Then came our group interview with Ms. Josie Lantin, Mr. Gus Rodriguez, etc. Its a "feel good" experience. It made me feel confident and somehow, "intelligent", though I know I can only do so much. Then on the 11th, we went to Hubert's place. We hung out. We pigged out! There, I've said it! Hmmm..what else? Then just last night, actually a few hours ago (since its just 2:22 am, Sunday) we checked out the open house again because my parents are now considering the other condos at eastwood. Oh yeah, the first option was liveable/livable on march 2006, that's next year. The one they are considering now is liveable/livable on 2009, which is for me, better than the 2006 one because I've graduated already by then. I don't need to look for "my own space" when doing a project or something academic. And by that time, my sisters would be married and have their own homes in Alabang or in Corinthian Gardens or in Laguna or in Makati. But come to think of it, I don't want to be separated from my sisters. I won't have any blouses or pants or bags to borrow anymore, nor any "pasalubongs" when they arrive from work or from out of towns. It would only be me and my parents. Gosh. Time flies to fast, don't you think? And now I can feel my eyes getting heavy because of the tears I'm trying to stop from falling. Heck. Anyways, we checked it out, the openhouse I mean, and my parents suddenly wanted the 2006 again! This time it would be a one-bedroom condo, which can be turned into a 3-bedroom, its magic! My mom's actually good in those kinds of stuff, maximizing space and all that! Hmmmm...Since my dad and mom are leaving on the 16th of this month, my mom will check the availability of the condo unit when she gets back on april. They were saying something like "if para saten talaga, saten..." She was talking about the unit. So, if she went home on April and there's still an available unit, then its a "GO". From 60-40, to 5-95, the status of my parents' decision is now 70-30, in favor of the PRO condo. So by 2006, its gonna be either Filinvest or Orchard something. Tomorrow, errr, later I mean, late breakfast, we'll go to Market Market or Megamall to start looking for condo stuff. haay! I've been telling my parents that "ayoko...." or "pero pano papuntang sku?", may sagot dad ko dun, hatid niya ako. "pano yung mga damit namen?dito nga lang hindi na magkasya kasya, hindi naman pwedeng magbawas ng damit dahil sila office people, ako no uniform ang school", that's what i silently told my sister, and she just smiled then agreed with me. I'm still looking for some CONS in living in a condo, but then, sentimentality would not be enough to convince my parents. The ideas I'm presenting is like that of a murder case with no proofs. You know something, because you just know it. Others can't feel and don't think the way you do, so its hard to make others understand. Hmmm....Well, "if para samen talaga yun eh, eh di wala na akong magagawa..." yun na lang muna siguro... I'm neither hoping for the condo, nor wishing it to not push through. I'm just gonna wait, for now. Let's see what happens. A lot of things can happen in 2 months. My parents' minds could change, or people would start buying condo units, or we find a better condo arrangment, I don't know. For now, I'll study hard, do my own thing! YEAH!
very well said Lizzette.... very well said.....
