I'm my normal WEIRD self again. No more awkwardness. haha. can i just quote a teacher?>> "sense of belongingness". haha. wala lang. its the block hiritan na ever since. pero wala lang. hmmm. oh yeah, im myself again. SABOG as always. i mean if dati medyo worried,paranoid and unsure of the situation, ngayon, WALA NANG PAKIELAM. haha! Basta, the advice of paola bautista worked, hmm, or better yet, is working. Its still an ongoing process eh, so I can't say that it worked (past tense) since it isn't really over yet. Well, as to how I feel, I told a teammate that "it's never gonna be over". Well, I guess it is true, but that doesn't mean that I'm gonna do something about it diba? Im just saying that there will always be part of me thinking and hoping, but I can choose to ignore or acknowledge it. It really depends on me. And now, I'm choosing to ESCHEW it (ehem, finella's word...haha). "it"? whatever that is. Oh, I love to talking to myself noh?! haha! Sometimes I can get too EMO and/or dramatic that i tend to "extend" the real current situation to somehow spice up my story. But i guess, it is my subconscious talking and projecting my "hopes/wishes". HAHA! labo na! pero seryoso, im starting to feel encouraged and open, and at the same time, cautious and eager to avoid(or eschew, haha). ika nga ng iba, "nangangapa sa dilim". bahala na si batman. basta ako, im enjoying school. School: academics, ARNIS as my pe, and flag training. oh well. i'm also happy because i was able to buy something with my own money, in a week's ipon money. haha! i just want to prove to everyone sa house na kaya kong mag-ipon, and yeah, of how much i need to go shopping. And hopefully, marealize na ng mom ko at bigyan akong shopping money. BUT THEN AGAIN, "asa". good luck ng ilang milyong beses saken.haha. sige, im tired, and sleepy coz of the medicine i took. nyteeee world!
